seriously.yes,i'm extremely into anatomy and i want to go to medicineschool,to become a doctor someday: but why do i have to learn everything the hard way?i`ve learned a great deal about the human body,diseases and woes.. cause of me and my deferred body

- for once i have something that is quite normal; otitis, only a very intense and acutely kind. i`ve slept 4 hours in 4-5days(oh yes..!) the two last nights has been a nightmare.i`ve never felt this kinda pain before,(and i`ve had a lot of things) - at first i was sobbing, but then crying my tears out like i`ve never cried before.fainted of the pain last night,gone only a few seconds,(sadly). the first night my right ears tympanum cracked, bled from the ear.thursday morning i went to the doctor, i got antibiotic and in the middle of the night, it cracked in the left ear as well. i'm now bleeding from both ears - also, my hearing is gone. i cant say the antibiotic have had any effect yet, even if the dr. said it should be better this morning allready.. (friday)
- i have never been so happy before knowing the fact that: i only have two ears.no more tympanum cracking. - my "pain-thresholds" actually very high - but this was, this is just..