if life's so hard already.why do u bring more trouble down yourself?what's up with the need to hit the self-destructed button? ..maybe you like the pain. maybe you're wired that way. because without it, i dont now .. maybe you just wouldnt feel real.
whats that saying?
"why do i keep hitting myself with a hammer?"
- "Because it feels so good when i stop."

dont apologize - i hope you choke and die.