"Stay in bed!" (Doctor's Orders)

do you take life for granted?i do, kind of.. most of the time.you're just walking around, living your life, and then BOOM - something happens. maybe one in your family have cancer, a car accident or whatever..something that makes you think about life, and death, and how sudden it can change.something that makes you think about how fragile you are, how much you care for that someone and how incredibly many negative,what-if-thoughts that rushes through your mind in just a few seconds of time. i think i frightened my close ones thursday night.the last 3 days i'd been staying in bed,in the dark. i had to see the doctor, i was oh so diseased.i thought it might be migraine or otitis,or both at the same time.. 40minutes drive to the doctor - he examined me, and he called the hospital and talked very low so i couldn't hear.. he examined me again,and then he said that he suspected it to be meningitis(hjernehinnebetennelse), and to be sure, he wanted me to get examinated explicitely by experts. the ones i've heard of who's had the disease has died - but even if they thought i had it, i didn't think so..
- and then my driver had to take me to the hospital in Førde as well, thank you so much Mr. :)

a lot of examinations, a lot of doctors and nurses.. a lot of hustle and bustle :p more doctors entered the room, each one wanted to examine me, and do the same tests as the other ones.. then they had to call a doctor which was home and not on duty. noone had done the last test they had to do, they only knew how to do it in theory. they had to deplete(tappe) some (2,5glasses) fluid(spinalvæske) from my spine(ryggmarg), brain-fluid actually.. i had to lie in a special way,and to bend my back like a cat..(seen a cat in a catfight?bending their back,and the cathair stand up in the air)..so that it was easier to get the needle inbetween the bones(klotene).i took it without any narcosis actually, cause then i had to wait longer, and one of the doctors asked me "Are you tough?you look like you are tough".. and i said yes,ofcourse i am.. so therefore no narcosis. did it hurt? OH YES! IT DID, SIR!

so now i've seen my own brain-fluid, fascinating alright!!

i got the test-results yesterday; i didn't have it. i'm glad! I have a seldom virus-infection instead, so i have to stay in bed for a while. after taking out the fluid i must expect pressure&headache, pain in my back and so on.. i feel terrible. fever, pain, too much pressure in the head and back when i sit, walk, stand. boring to stay in bed/sofa all day,but i have to.
i had the choice if i wanted to stay in the hospital or to go home to mum - ofcourse i chose the second one. hospitals are boring, filled with sick ppl, and you often have to share room with old ladies who talks too much,caughing,and all other kind of 'bodysounds' ++

i'm home now, parked in the sofa in my room in front of the tv, with the laptop in my lap, all kind of food and drinks around me.. fruitplate, candy, cookies, slices of bread, tea,ice-tea, coke ++ and a phone to call mum downstairs if i need anything.