'add to shopping bag'

i haven't been shopping for a week,or wait a sec.. three days,i did buy something on saturday, i'd forgot about that - anyway: i'm suffering from severe withdrawal symptoms. it feels like i havent bought anything AT ALL.
the addict in me is not tolerating that very well, i am telling you. shopping is an addiction. take my words for that.now i am having this constant urge to want to buy something. i can't stop thinking about it, even when i'm working. it's a craving that won't die off unless you satisfy it. sounds scary? i am sure my fellow shopaholics know what i am talking about.
i just.. i want to buy something. seriously,i NEED to buy something!or maybe i just need to be put in a rehabilitation center ;O
and even if i stay inside all day and avoid the mall i still get to shop! i guess you`ve heard about shopping online, it is a whole new and better world than outside.. you can shop all you want, and it is so easy&peaceful.
'add to shopping bag' - 'continue shopping'..
like i said - too easy.

the only normal persons
are the ones you
dont know very well!

i am looking forward to recover - then i`ll start to work out again.

i actually miss it (!)

i need to get back in shape..

i guess most girls allready have began preparing for summer, and the bikini-season..

don't torture yourself.

by the time you
finish reading this
you realize you
have wasted 5
seconds of
your life

pics taken while driving back&forth to førde tuesday&wednesday

you know how when you were a kid and you believed in fairytales? that fantasy of what your life would be. white dress, prince charming; who`d carry you away to a castle on a hill. you`d lie in bed at night and close your eyes, and you had complete and utter faith;)
some believe(d) in santa claus, the tooth fairy, prince charming, they were so close, you taste them. but eventually, you grow up. one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. most people turn to the things and people they can trust. but the thing is, it's hard to let go of the fairy tale entirely. cause almost everyone still has the smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they'll open their eyes, and it will all come true.
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at the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. it turns up when you don't really expect it. it's like one day you realise that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed.
the castle, well.. it may not be a castle,and it's not so important that it's happy ever after. just that it's happy right now.see, once in a while,once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. and once in a while:
..people may even take your breath away.

if life's so hard already.why do u bring more trouble down yourself?what's up with the need to hit the self-destructed button? ..maybe you like the pain. maybe you're wired that way. because without it, i dont now .. maybe you just wouldnt feel real.
whats that saying?
"why do i keep hitting myself with a hammer?"
- "Because it feels so good when i stop."

dont apologize - i hope you choke and die.

seriously.yes,i'm extremely into anatomy and i want to go to medicineschool,to become a doctor someday: but why do i have to learn everything the hard way?i`ve learned a great deal about the human body,diseases and woes.. cause of me and my deferred body

- for once i have something that is quite normal; otitis, only a very intense and acutely kind. i`ve slept 4 hours in 4-5days(oh yes..!) the two last nights has been a nightmare.i`ve never felt this kinda pain before,(and i`ve had a lot of things) - at first i was sobbing, but then crying my tears out like i`ve never cried before.fainted of the pain last night,gone only a few seconds,(sadly). the first night my right ears tympanum cracked, bled from the ear.thursday morning i went to the doctor, i got antibiotic and in the middle of the night, it cracked in the left ear as well. i'm now bleeding from both ears - also, my hearing is gone. i cant say the antibiotic have had any effect yet, even if the dr. said it should be better this morning allready.. (friday)
- i have never been so happy before knowing the fact that: i only have two ears.no more tympanum cracking. - my "pain-thresholds" actually very high - but this was, this is just..

a couple of hundred years ago, benjamin franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that till tomorrow," he said, "Which you can do today."
this is the man who discovered the electricity. you`d think more of us would listen to what he said.. i dont know why we put things off, but if i had to guess, i`d say it has a lot to do with fear. fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. sometimes the fear is just of making a decision. because what if you`re wrong?what if you`re making a mistake you cant undo?
- he who hesitates is lost. we cant pretend we havent been told. we`ve al heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day.
still, sometimes, we have to see for ourselves. we have to make our own mistakes, we have to learn our own lessons. we have to sweep todays possibility under tomorrows rug until we cant anymore.until we finally understand for ourselves what benjamin franklin meant, that knowing is better than wondering. that waking is better than sleeping,
and that even the biggest failure even the worst, most intractable mistake beats the h..(#/) out of never trying.

i cant seem to decide what is worse;
to be the patient,
OR, to be on the other side(relative,friend) worrying about the patient..
- if i had to choose between those two, i actually think i would pick to be the patient.i`d rather be in pain then worrying sick about a close one who`s seriously ill.
most of all(i know it wasnt an option) - i'd prefer to be the Doctor ;)

eg ha funne`ut at eg ha sansen for han odd nordstoga, steike for ein kar! filmsnutt av han,konsert på vg-tv.

if you cant get him out of your head.. maybe he`s supposed to be there.